I've Been Across The Whole Atlantic and Back Again

I went to Paris this summer. It was an amazing experience, but it was a very last minute thing, and I sort of tagged along on someone else's trip. I had a lot of fun and it was great, but I'd like to do it again on my own terms. For more than a week!
So I am making plans to travel across Europe this summer. You know, buy a Eurail pass and stay in hostels all the way.
I want to go to Spain, France, Netherlands, Italy, Belgium and Germany. Of course England as well but that's where I'll be flying into.

This seems very possible. The Eurail pass is a little over 800 dollars for a month (not bad) and hostels are usually around 30 a night. For 30 days that's 900 dollars. Airfare is around 1000. I'm thinking 3,500 will be the total cost of the trip. I'm NOT gonna be spending much on food.
It's a lot of money but life is meant for living, and living to me means doing what you love. I LOVE to travel.
Also, I should around 8,000 saved up by the end of June (after buying the tickets).
After the trip, I am either moving to Toronto or Southern California. I have to find out where my heart lies.

Anyways this is my plan. I love how I wanted to go to school to be a nursing assistant. I all too often let what is expected of me interfere with how I really feel. I want to travel and move to a big city. And that is what I am doing by July.

I still have the idea of becoming an RN to support myself while trying to make in in Hollywood looming in the back of my head. But going to school and going through that just for $? I don't know. We shall see.

Peace out my lovers and homies.

Xo
cD

Something for the guys

Don't you hate when you start a new job and you have to erase all the naked pictures off your phone?

Good Day Bbroida

Whatever that means.

I got the job!
I go in tomorrow for the official 'job offer'.

I'm very excited and very happy. I sort of gave up after not hearing Thurs, Fri, Sat, Sun...
But. Don't!
Don't give up.

Ya Better Back Up Offa Me

I had my job interview today and I think it went well.
I'll hear Thursday if I got the job or not.
*Fingers crossed*

Once Again Congratulation

I quite like making the title of my blog posts out of subject lines of junk e-mails.

Anywho
I have a job interview on Tuesday at a major retailer for a seasonal position. Pretty exciting considering I haven't had any work for almost a year. Many applications, a few interviews, but nussink.

Maybe they will decide to keep me on and I'll be able to work through the year while going to school. At least until April when I finish the nursing assistant program.

That's all folks.

xo
cD

Aliens and Millionaires

Is it possible to fall in love with someone based on TWEETS?
I guess so, since it has happened to me.

Ha ha, haha haha.

Love Doctor

Hello, World.
Been a month since my last post... Hmm.

A lot has transpired this past year, and the past few months especially. Although my days haven't been particularly eventful, attitudes, opinions, beliefs... They've changed.

I got approved medically to join the Air Force, and was making plans to be processed and take the ASVAB.
But I finally decided it wasn't for me. It was hard for me to convey this to the recruiter, but I did. So now, that plan is out the window and off my chest... I felt so much relief getting off the phone with him. I know that I made the right choice.
I get to be ME now.
The hard part about NOT joining, is not gaining the benefits I would get by joining. I think it's worth it.

But I had to start thinking about what I wanted to do.
I applied for financial aide so I can go to school to become a Nursing Assistant. I'll see if I'm approved in a week or so.

It's a short course (I think) and I'll be able to make better money than working retail (...) while I'm going to school to become an RN.

After that, I want to go to school and get my Bachelor's with a double major in Nutrition - Dietetics and Business with an emphasis on sustainability. Difficult, I know. But worth it if I decide to cut off my education right there.
After THAT, I want to go to school to become a Naturopathic Doctor... maybe.
For someone who's never been the biggest fan of school, this is a lot of school. I know I want at least my bachelor's, but the extra 4 years for Med School plus clinical training... not to mention tests for licensing and the upkeep to go along with it.

For someone who has always wanted to break into the entertainment industry, these are all interesting choices.
I figure at the very least, in 3 years from now, after becoming an RN, I'll know if I want to continue my education... Rather than support myself while trying to get into film and television, or even go to school for something in the Arts.

A lot to think about, isn't it?

3 Download Day

Tuesday, Oct 6th is 3 Download Day!
Everybody go and get Britney's new single.

I don't know

If anybody has been reading anything I've written I've opened up the comment section to anonymous users.
Peace
xo
Cd

Tears

Today, I cried.
I cried because I came to the realization that I was making big decisions out of fear. Fear of what others think of me. Fear of what others would think if I didn't make a certain choice or live life in the way that they found acceptable.

I can't do that anymore. I can't live with fear in my heart, and make life-altering decisions because of it.
I have to make decisions out of love. Out of love for myself.

Yum-O

heh.

One Man a Week

PS- A friend of a friend started a blog chronicling their adventure of making one pie a week.
I joked and said I was going to make a blog chronicling my adventure of sleeping with one man a week. Lawlz.

I imagine it to go something like this.

October 9th, 2009

Today I was in the mood for chocolate. Dark chocolate with big nuts.
I started my hunt with a Craigslist ad:
Young, slim bottom seeks aggressive Dark Chocolate, meaty top with a set of low hangers and a huge package...

I got more replies than I thought, and settled on a man who looked like a slightly thinner version of Taye Diggs.

I went over to his place. The door was ajar, just a crack. I pushed it open to reveal this gorgeous man laying naked, face down, facing me...
...


What a hoot that would be. BUT. I'm not a slut (not to that extent at least. jk)
That would send my very low number high sky. I can't say I'd be proud of that.
Anyways, I am fully exhausted.

xoxo
Cd

She's leaving...

My best friend is leaving. Joining the Air Force. It's crazy. I guess I never thought the day would come.
I'm one of those people who doesn't believe something until it happens. I didn't accept my Grandma's death until the memorial service, where I cried like a baby.
Tonight, I felt fine until I came inside from seeing my friend, 'R', for the last time. Then I had a panic attack.

I don't know why I'm like this. I wish I could just be able to accept something and believe it.

Better yet, I wish something so good happens I won't be able to believe it. I want something THAT amazing to happen.

I e-mailed my local radio station telling them I would be the perfect co-host for their show. Haha. Wouldn't that be awesome if something came out of that? I am realistic in terms of probability, but I do believe anything can happen. It just has to be the right time.

But what about the right decision? I've gone on with this charade that I'm joining the military for a few months, giving myself an excuse not to look for work (although I have). I've been telling myself and everyone around me that's what I'm doing, and October 2nd is the day I find out if my health is good enough to go.
Then the ball will start rolling. Should I stop it?

I am exhausted. Wanna bet I'm going to have some crazy dreams?

xoxo
CD

So Crazy boy.

Wow, haha.
I forgot I had a blog until I decided I wanted to start one.
My previous blog post... I can not believe that was almost two years ago. It really can't be.
Because I feel the exact same way as I did then. Except that instead of a nice-smelling piece of shit, it's the most rank, foul smelling piece of shit I have ever come across.
It could be worse. I don't have half the problems that one kid somewhere in Africa has...
"I know, poor Africa. It's like they put every bad thing and put it on one continent."

But the need to make music? I still feel it.
I have songs in me, but no way to make them come alive.



I think that's what made me come to making a blog in the first place. The need to express myself.
I have a lot to say but no way to say it...
Hmm.
I know I have some kind of original voice, something that this world is dying to hear, but I need the right context. I need somewhere to place all my ideas. I think music might be my answer, but for now, this blog will suffice.

Readers will come if they will, I suppose. If not, it's a diary open for all the world to see. And that's fine with me.